Natalie’s Christian Testimony
Before I Accepted Christ
Before I gave my life to Christ I had deep emotional problems. These deep emotional problems began to surface one year after graduating college in 2005. I was feeling very sad and weak. Around that time, I went to my family physician because I thought I was physically sick. Instead, I was “diagnosed” with depression and an eating disorder, and I started taking multiple psychiatric drugs. I also went to psychotherapy once a week.
At that time, I felt like I had a hole in my heart, and I desperately wanted it healed. The only place that I thought I could get help was from Psychology and Psychiatry. I went to all of my psychotherapy appointments religiously, and I even tried to modify my life based on what my therapist suggested. Along with that, I took the medicine prescribed to me as directed. Nothing seemed to help.
After struggling for about 5 years, my psychiatrist changed my diagnosis from depression to Bipolar Disorder. The medications that I were on were slightly changed, and over the years I was put on more and more drugs. My life began to revolve around my Bipolar Disorder. At the height of this struggle I was taking 8 medications a day. I had also been admitted to the psych hospital 4 times, but none of this helped my emotional problems. They only became worse, and I was even told that I would never be cured. Basically, I was given a life sentence of emotional highs and lows. I was completely let down by my hope in Psychology and Psychiatry.
How I Received Christ
I grew up in a Catholic family, and I also attended Catholic School for 8 years, but I never fully understood the Gospel. I first heard and began to understand the Gospel in 2012 when I worked at a law office. The attorney and a co-worker started telling me about Jesus. My initial reaction was that I had heard it before at Catholic School, and I wasn’t really interested.
My attitude about Jesus started to change when the attorney and some of his friends invited me to a Christian fellowship event. I began to see that Christianity was more than going to church every Sunday. I could see that each person had a relationship with Jesus, and they lived out their faith each day. I could see that their lives were different, and I wanted what they had.
After 3 months of being on the fence about accepting Christ, I had dinner with John, the attorney. That evening he gave me the Gospel again, and it was presented clearer than ever. The only thing that was holding me back was that I thought I wasn’t good enough for Jesus. John opened the Bible and showed me Romans 3:23, “We have all sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” That made me realize that I could never clean up my life to be accepted by Jesus. Jesus accepted me as I was in that moment. With that understanding, I accepted Christ.
After I Accepted Christ
After I became a Christian, Jesus began to transform me. Within a month the Lord delivered me from 8 psychiatric drugs without any withdrawal effects. I also was able to start eating normally, and I began to overcome the physical part of my eating disorder.
Although the Lord began to change me right away, it took time to heal the deep emotional problems. God has healed me and renewed my mind through forgiveness, repentance, and Biblical truth.
After the Lord set me free through application of Biblical truth, God put it on my heart to help others break free as well. For many years I looked for help in Psychology and Psychiatry, but I found that the only true help is Jesus. The desire in my heart to help other people break free from bondage and untruths has led my husband, John, and I to start this ministry.